Duet

by Josie Lin

What happened to us? It seemed as though the world's been crashing down all around us ever since that day we parted. I couldn't understand it then, and I still don't understand it now. Something unconceivable happened and I don't understand it, or at least I can't understand it.

"Terry?"

No answer.

"Terry, honey?"

Silence broken only by my words.

"Terrence..."

The pencil broke and the sound of the chair scuffing the pristine floors echoed through the room. You stood up and walked towards the balcony. The sun was beginning to set behind the horizon. The light shined onto your face as you looked beyond this time, this place.

"What happened to us, Terrence? What happened...?"

Your eyes seemed to look through my words. They pierced right through me as you glanced over to where I was standing. I was transparent, weak, and meaningless under that gaze. I was nothing.

"Nothing happened," he said under his breath. He wiped his brow as a bead of sweat dripped down his face.

"Everything happened, Terrence. You just fail to accept it."

He stood there unmoved by my words, as if nothing mattered anymore. I walked over to where he stood and placed my hand lightly on his shoulder. His body shuddered. I drew away.

Sitting in the rocking chair on the balcony, I began to think back to the times before this. We were so happy then.

Terrence and I met about 3 years ago when we auditioned for the orchestra and wind assemble at our university. We were both young and passionate over music. I still remember the first day we met. I was a flutist and he was a bass clarinet. I watched his audition and instantly fell in love with his music. He was an amazing musician, which I found rather intimidating since I would be up in a few minutes. I was terribly nervous over my audition and dropped my music everywhere before my audition. He was kind enough to stop and help me pick it up. It was then when I fell in love with his smile. Neither one of us knew that our passion for music would extend into our passion for the love we had for one another. However, that was a long time ago. Things have changed now.

"You're brilliant, you know. Your music is brilliant just like you," I said to him softly. "I can never show the same finesse and ingenuity in my music as you have."

He was quiet and calm, like a soft ballade. I could read his impulse, his mood, and his preference.
"What happened to us? You don't love me, do you?"

He didn't even have to answer me, for I knew the answer. I loved him since the first day I met him. I loved him for everything he was, everything he accomplished, and everything he strived to be-- I loved him. We used to carry the same tempo, but perhaps I had imagined it to be that way.

"You were never in love with me, Terrence. You were in love with my music. No, not even that. You were just in love with the fact that I loved you. All you wanted was someone to love you for your music. I can see that now. You never really wanted anyone to really love you, but I do."

"Cynthia..."

"And now that I love you, it's become too complicated for you. You never asked for all of this. You never wanted all of this. "

"Cynthia."

This time, I was silent.

"Cynthia, you always were a romantic. You carried a tune far better than anyone I've ever seen.But, we're just not playing the same melody anymore."

"Analogies? Is that all you have for me?"

I stood up and faced him straight on. He did not have the same kind face I saw on that day at the audition. His hands were cold, and it seemed as though he lived in a world where I could not reach him. All he had now was the music he creates with those hands of his. The only thing in his mind and in his heart, is the melody of the brilliance he wishes to create. He had no room for the love I had for him. He had no room for anyone or anything else in the world.

"I'm tired, Cynthia."

"You're always tired, Terrence. Most of all, you're always tired of me."

"Cynthia."

"No, Terrence. You're right. I see it now. We don't carry the same melody anymore, and I don't believe we ever did. This duet of ours isn't truly a duet. In your mind and in your heart, the only duet you have is a duet for one."

I placed my hand over his heart, as I placed his hand over mine.

"This song has always been playing for you. You're right, I've always been a romantic. You just never accepted it."

The bags were packed and waiting by the door. The keys in my pocket were drawn out slowly as I left them at the table by the door. The ring on my finger slipped off as easily as it slipped on.

"Goodbye Terrence, goodbye..."

I left without looking back. The ring slipped from my hand and through my fingertips. The sound of its simplicity crashed onto the floor as the world crashed with it, resounding into infinity. I never played the same melody twice, but every once and a while my heart beats for him. Never ever again would I play a duet, as I remembered his duet for one.

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