“We haven’t arrived yet,” the woman said, looking out of the bus
window. The heavy raindrops were still falling down from the
skies, dancing happily on the top of the white bus. It has been
raining the whole day. “We’ve been traveling for an hour
already, and we haven’t arrived yet.”
“You were the one who wanted to come,” The
blond-haired man sitting behind her said. He was lying on the
bus seat, playing with a paper airplane, just made from a sheet
of notebook paper. There weren’t many people filling the plastic
seats of the bus; the rain had scared people off the pavement
streets.
“Well, I just felt like it...” she replied in a low voice,
looking out of the glass window of the bus still. She had blond
hair also, tied back into a ponytail.
The man was making airplane noises, as he moved the airplane
slowly in the air, turning and elevating it, his brown eyes
following every move. He seemed to be twenty-some years old,
just a little older than the woman. “Lest the world really goes
away,” He began singing, in a soft-tuned melody. “I don’t want
to hear you say, ‘good-bye’...”
“What’s the title of that song?” The woman asked
rapidly, turning back to look at her best friend, who was still
playing with his paper airplane in the damp bus air. He could
see her eyes now, which were of an emerald green color.
“Why do you ask, Celes?” The man answered, his eyes still on the
fragile airplane. His hands were resting on his black T-shirt
now, which had the words ‘Metallica’ drawn on it.
“Because it has a nice melody to it,” Celes responded. She was
wearing a pink jacket, black pants, and white walking shoes.
The man just nodded silently, his eyes still staring at his toy.
“It doesn’t have a title. It’s a song that I just made up, you
know, out of my mind.”
“Oh.” The woman replied, slowly turning toward the
window once again. The rain was still falling down outside. “I
always said that you should have become a musician.” Celes
whispered, after a minute of silence.
“It’s not a steady job. That’s why I didn’t take it.”
“What do you mean ‘it’s not a steady job’?”
“Well,” The man said, finally looking up from his
airplane. “Being a musician is a lot like being a writer or a
poet. If you can’t get a publisher to publish your work, or if
no audience will listen to your words, then you’ll be out of a
job, and you won’t get pay. You may become a star in one day,
but you may fall down to the dumps the next day too. Being a
singer is just too unstable to be a real profession.”
“And being a lawyer is a steady job?”
“Sure it is. Mankind will always fight with each
other, producing crimes every minute. And there’s always one or
more lawyers needed for every crime tried in a trial. In other
words, the need for lawyers will never cease, till humans cease
to fight with each other, which is as impossible as our
president having sex with an alien in an UFO.” That’s when the
man paused, and looked down at his airplane once again.
“Thinking about it, that may be possible after all...”
Celes nodded silently, still staring out at the
falling rain. “Lest the world really goes away,” The man began
singing once again. “I don’t want to hear say, ‘good-bye’. Lest
the rain will never fall again, I don’t want to hear you say,
‘I’m gone’...”
“What does the word ‘lest’ mean, Locke?” The woman
asked, not turning away from her window-watching.
“I don’t know.” Locke shrugged his shoulders, still playing with
his plane.
“Is that even a real word? I mean, does it have a meaning?”
“I guess, if you look it up at the dictionary.”
“So, if you don’t know the real meaning, why is it
in the song?”
“Because it sounded right.” The man replied, his
brown eyes looking up from his creation. “The word ‘lest’ means
nothing at all in the song, it’s just a word that starts the
whole song lyric, just like a detonator of a bomb, or Cupid’s
arrow in love.”
“Oh.” Celes nodded once again. The rain still
pouring outside the window. The bus was slowing down now, as it
spotted people on a bus stop.
“Why do you dye your hair blond, Celes?” Locke asked suddenly,
as the bus came to a full stop, sliding open the doors on the
front and the back.
“Because Brad liked it blond...” Celes replied in a low voice,
as some people went out through the back, only to be replaced by
the people coming in from the front.
“Who cares about what your husband said. Don’t you like your own
red hair?”
“Yes... But it made Brad happy to see me blonde, and
seeing him happy made me happy.”
“He’s dead now. Why do you still dye it after he’s
dead?”
“Because he liked it before he died...”
Locke looked at her with disgust on his face.
“Bummer.” He said after a few seconds of silence, his eyes back
again on his fragile airplane. The bus was moving now, as Locke
continued his song, on that same soft melody as before. “And the
rain is still falling down, and you’re still sitting by the
window, looking out, staring out. I don’t know how you feel, and
I guess you don’t know how I really feel, do you? So lest the
world really goes away, I don’t want to hear you say,
‘good-bye’...”
“I always dreamed that I would grow old with Brad,”
Celes interrupted the song, still staring out the window. “Have
children, a normal family, grow old...”
Locke just looked at Celes, not moving, not saying
anything. “I never thought that he would be killed in a car
accident...” Celes continued, as the bus stopped for a red
light. “Do you have any dreams, Locke?”
Locke didn’t say anything, as he fumbled with his
plane. The bus moved once again, through the shower of
raindrops, as Locke started his song once again. “Lest mankind
ceases to exist, I don’t want to hear you yell, ‘bye-bye’. Lest
my life finally comes to an end, I don’t want to hear you cry,
‘farewell’...”
“Yet I still stand away,” Locke continued his song,
as he raised his paper airplane, preparing it for its flight.
“Afraid to tell you how I really feel, I’m afraid. I don’t know
how I feel, and I guess you don’t know how you really feel, do
you now?”
“So, lest the rain will never fall again,” Locke
sang in a louder voice, bursting it through the silence in the
bus, as his hands finally leaves the plane, finally letting it
fly gracefully in the air. “Lest mankind ceases to exist, lest
my life finally comes to an end...”
“I don’t want to see you go...” Locke sang louder
now, his song gracing the ears of everyone in the bus, as the
airplane flew faster in the air, feeling the freedom of life,
glancing the many billboards above the passenger’s heads. “I
don’t want to be alone... I don’t want to wave farewell... I
don’t want to say good-bye!...”
The plane crashed on the clear window of the bus,
before it could feel the freshness of the falling rain, and fell
down onto the dark-colored floor, its nose now broken. “So lest
the world really goes away,” Locke sang now in a low voice,
almost a whisper. “I don’t want to hear you say...
‘good-bye’...”
Locke got up from his seat, wiping his hands on his blue jeans,
as he picked up the wounded airplane. “Dreams are like the
flight of a paper airplane.” Locke said, mostly to himself, as
he sat down once again behind Celes. “It’s able to soar as high
and free as it wants to, in its first time. But no matter how
well you fix it afterwards, it will never be able to soar as
high as the first flight, never as well...”
Locke looked up at Celes, who was still staring at
the heavy rain outside. “You sure you want to go to the
cemetery?” Locke asked in a low voice. “Since this is going to
be your last day here...”
“I have to...”
“Why are you moving away, Celes? What’s wrong with
here?”
“I promised Brad to never love anyone else but
him...” Celes whispered. “And now he’s dead... And you’re now so
near... So close...”
The bus was now motionless, blocked by the red light
of the metal traffic signal once again. “Right...” Locke
answered after a while, as his hands tried to fix the broken
nose of the plane. “I see...”
Locke threw the airplane once again. It wasn’t able
to fly as majestically as before, just as Locke said, and
crashed nose-first onto the garbage-scattering floor, its
freedom lost once again. Locke and Celes didn’t speak to each
other anymore, as the bus slowly mover through the green light
barrier of the signal, under the heavy rain and the cloudy
skies.
---Written
by Liang-Tang Lin